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For the past year I have been struggling with anxiety. Thankfully, its inconvenient head has not reared itself on a daily basis but often enough to be an issue. My particular struggle involves traveling. I do not fear driving on highways or even worry about getting in an accident. I’m not concerned with my vehicle breaking down or needing assistance along the way. In analyzing the why and when of my anxiety, it seems to mostly appear when I have to travel with others. Just the thought of losing control in front of those who aren’t in my immediate family, causes anxiety to grip my heart.

The beginning of a new year lends to moments of reflection upon the year that was. Did I learn and grow? Did I reach or move closer to the goals I set for myself? Or, am I filled with regret over what did not come to pass or missed opportunities? As I reflect upon 2015, I see moments of obedience to God and also times of ignoring the prompting of the Holy Spirit in my life. Times of triumph, and those of regret. Amidst this mixed bag, I can still see the workings of God in my life and a slow release of my assumed control.

It was also within this past year that the only music I engaged in listening to was that of praise and worship to our God. I found that by only allowing my mind to focus on the praise of our Lord and Saviour, my mind was able to process challenges in a more Christ-like manner. Of course, my humanity came through on a number of occasions but I do feel more battles were won than lost. During these worshipful moments – mostly while driving alone – God spoke to me a number of times through the words of the songs pouring into my soul through the mediocre speakers in my car.